But it was sometime after that. Sometime between that moment and the moment in which I called my best friend and said “I’ve done something bad,” a bad thing had happened. The irony is that I don’t know what “something bad” means. Maybe that’s why I can’t pinpoint the bad moment so easily now….
...read moreHe becomes more and more unhappy as I watch. He straightens up and does a few simple dance moves. I keep watching. I don’t think anyone else is watching him. I don’t think anyone else is listening.
...read moreThe more problems I have the less claim any individual one has to my soul, right? It works like a charm until each of those problems comes to the separate conclusion that I am the toxic one and they all back away slowly. And then it occurs to me that I have nowhere to go, that I’ve drunk way too much alcohol, and that I haven’t had a plan in weeks.
...read moreare we friends enough
for me to miss you?
and tell you?
Sometime during the show, the two gentlemen sitting closest to me get up and leave. Somehow, my thirty seven cents are left on the couch where they were sitting. I look for the tip jar but cannot find it, so I put my change back in my purse, wondering if I’ve hit a new low.
...read morewhen words and music flow
in an endless loop
from hand to pen
pen to page…
Soaked in rum and drained of money, operation get-out-more plods along its task of bringing exposure to new problem-people and reintroduction to old ones. I don’t care how asinine they are, as long as there are lots of them…
...read moreTomorrow I won’t be waiting for a phone call. Nor will I be on Thursday. Today, for lack of any better thing to do, I’ve been waiting for a phone call. Or waiting for Wednesday. Whichever comes first.
...read moreI don’t feel anything when i think of this open mic. I feel something when i think of my guitarist. Or at least, my mind begins to take off in the general direction of obsession, and i think that might be the same as “feeling something.” Or close enough.
...read moreAt least, that would be implied by the vernal equinox, which was yesterday. The vernal equinox is the first day of the astrological new year. I’m always looking for an excuse to start over. Afehyia Pa.
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